FAILED DAY ONE

Ok...so I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but I feel completely defeated.

I made it all the way until 9:15 this evening.  I felt like I was so hungry I was going to start gnawing on my own toes...it was bad.  I had 3 green drinks today and 2 fruit drinks.  More than I ever juice when I am doing juice and raw.

In a moment of weakness I caved...I figured, what's an apple?  An apple is the exact same thing I put into a blender but the crunching will help kill the cravings.  (yet not help with the shutting down of the digestive system)...nope.  It made me hungrier.  So then I had about oh, a 1/2 a cup of sunflower seeds and a pear.

OK....I should have stopped there.  Could have stopped there...but no....a piece of Ezekiel bread with all natural peanut butter led to a 1/2 a ezekiel bread swiss cheese sandwich and some dark chocolate.


WTF!!!!!

Come ON Dana.  WHAT IN THE WORLD?  I did not realize I have an addiction to eating.  Oh, well, maybe I do not...but the cheese sandwich?  WHEN do I ever eat grilled cheese?  Ever?  Obviously my bodies strong need to adjust overcame my will power.

So this is how I am trying to look at this.  I did well all the way until 9ish...maybe tomorrow evening I can go to bed earlier (an issue for me)...but tomorrow is a new day.  I did not go all out.  I did not break out the pear pie left overs or eat a bunch of chocolate or whatever.  I tried and I almost made it.  So here is to DAY TWO tomorrow...which technically will be day ONE but I am NOT going to beat myself up and go backwards a day.  THIS will get easier, I can do this TOMORROW.  I can.  You'll see.